I don't know how or why you fall into love with someone. Every person around me seems to being falling out of love or trying to avoid the emotion all together. I can't help but question what love is or how it feels. Why when you think you love someone completely without any bounds you can't see eye to eye on at least one big part of life? How is it that another you could give two damns about wants everything you do? When does it all come together? Where can you feel happiness when love seems so out of reach?

Now that I've left Freeman and am living more of a "normal" life I think I can once again be creative. I know I've said this several times, but sometimes it takes a big fall to find the ground again. The biggest risk I've taken was leaving the Big Blue. It was scary, sad, and relieving all at once. Maybe it's because I'm a girl I got so mixed up in emotions. Regardless I am in such a better position now. I still am finding my ground at Booz Allen, but at least I have my mental and physical health...a lot more than what I can say for the past four years. So hopefully you'll find this site as a doorway into my soul, but at the very least visit just to laugh at me being sarcastic or nonsensical.