What is love?

My completely random answers:
Your heart skips a beat at the very thought of him. He grins every time he sees you.
You miss him snoring next to you. He checks on you throughout the night as you rest peacefully.
Both individuals know when the other needs some quiet time. No arguments arise.
Little bad habits don't annoy you. Relaxation is second nature in his presence.
When he lets you act a fool because you're nervous. You would never disrespect him in public.
He wants you in sweats and a Timbs. You always want to look good when he's around.
You always think of his needs. He always acts surprised when you do little things from him.

Feelings are for the weak.
The sad and the lonely.
Those with time for tears.
Individuals with cares.

Here there lies no room
for such emotions nor
your confusions.

no questions, no regrets

i allowed myself one tear last
night
gently brushing it away with the same fingertip
you kiss
not even posing a few
questions
couldn't possess any
regrets
waking with a slight broken
confidence
yet moving forward in complete
focus
impossible to let go of my
love
i have no questions and no regrets

OOLONG TEA......herbal tea A carrot, an egg, and a cup of Oolong tea...You will never look at a cup of Oolong the same way again.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed Oolong tea. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the Oolong out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see." "Carrots, eggs, and Oolong tea," she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the Oolong. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?" Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The Oolong tea was unique, however. After they were in the boiling water , they had changed the water color and taste.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or an Oolong tea? Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or am I like the Oolong tea? The tea actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the tea, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a Oolong tea?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Sometimes you step out on faith. Other times it's a new found confidence.

With him it was desire, hope and love. That will never waiver. I wish I could take his regrets and relive the first moment we touched. But this is now and then will never return.

As I make a decision to pursue my professional path I have to search for exactly the same amount of passion. I leave for NY tomorrow knowing I have God's grace. I can't fall, I won't turn back.

I think you may actually love me and fallen as deep as I. But for some reason when I hear your tone over the line you sound less enthusiastic. Maybe I’ve put too much pressure on you for a future. Need I take a step back from the many pushed forward? Shall I be less sensitive to my negative thoughts? Perhaps only time will tell.

In the meantime, know I miss you and wish I could curl into your arms.

MY MBA :)

It's official. I received my diploma on March 7, 2007 and will graduate with a 3.959. I don't think I'm going to the ceremony though. My dad can't come since he has to take care of the farm. I love my mom dearly, but dad-dukes was the power behind my moves. He always challenged me and forced me to prove my abilities to myself. I can't walk across the stage and not have him present. After a tough three years the accomplishment is enough acknowledgment.

emotions.anger.sadness.loneliness.fear.grief.empty. you say tears are for the weak and i know you are watching from above. so i turn my cheek and don't give any of them the satisfaction of seeing me weep.

(A letter to "my 2nd father".)

Hey Crazy Hippie. I had to say good bye to you today. As the tears engulfed my cheeks, trembles controlled my limbs until I thought I would lose consciousness. I kept wishing you were there to say something sarcastic and make me laugh or at least force me to become defensive. But then I guess I wouldn't be mourning. Thank you for showing me the importance of passion, love, friendship, generosity, dedication, hard work, pride and dreams. You are an amazing man and your legacy will live forever. Our family will never be the same without you.

Love always and forever,
Pooki

I think I've lost all creative talent. A friend says I just need to get into a good relationship and all my woes will be solved. I doubt that. Anyway, don't expect any profound words or artistic pieces of work anytime in the near future.

Seriously, VA weather needs to take a turn toward warmer temps so Blockbuster becomes an option, not a necessity.

Today an attempt was made to explain love and being in love to me by a good friend. It's nice to know others believe in love in such a way it keeps them yearning to experience it again and again.
I, for one, would like to fall just once - deeply, unconditionally, everlasting - in love.

Well it's been even longer than the time span between my last posts, but with good reason. I've officially completed my grad school program. Unfortunately the blood, sweat and tears (yes, tears) haven't paid off just yet, but I'm sure in due time (at least, that's what they say). Anyway, here's an update on life - I think I've finally found myself if such an epiphany is really possible. However, knowing what you want out of life and constantly not being able to attain it is almost worse than being completely lost. I've gained so much confidence and yet I seem to hide from the next big steps in life. Being promoted has been bitter sweet as I watch another person take my role as being the one everyone depends on. However, when I was in her place I only resented those who constantly needed me. I suppose this is part of maturing and I need to quickly move on because it wouldn't be such a big deal if I hadn't become so entrenched in my 9-5. All in all though the adjustment has spawned a massive job search throughout the DC area for a marketing gig. Say a little prayer for me. I've met an amazing guy who just so happens to be in another state. Never thought my heart would fill with butterflies again when the phone rang and I saw HIS name on the caller ID. Mom and dad are still supporting me albeit much less than ever before. My older brother is going to jail once again. God be with him because for the first time I believe he may be safer on the streets. Detox alone may kill him. The condo is coming along. I actually have tile floors in the bathroom and no water streaming through my bedroom with every rainfall (long story not worth writing). Stay tuned for brief and possibly humorous tales on the kitchen transformation. So that's it...that's my life right now. Somehow I feel it should be much more interesting.